Monday, September 13, 2010

Finally.... It happened ;)

This post is an update on significant events in my relationship journey which was a roller coaster ride that finally churned the best possible event out after years.



I saw her when I joined Indian Matriculation School for my higher studies with a great determination to make up my disappointing tenth standard marks. The then principal of my school believed that she would tackle 10th standard exams straight after her 8th and so I was lucky to have her in my class. She was very sharp. She was incredibly fast at grasping, retaining and flawlessly reproducing lessons in the class. I liked her. I liked her funny walk and her beautiful smile with dimples. It was very challenging to consistently equal her in the class and I loved doing it.




After almost a year, I got a call from her, disguised as Sharmila, to get plus one question paper which was out before the exams and which I had from my Krishnagiri friends. To her surprise, I could identify her in few seconds of conversation though that was the first time I was talking to her personally. Thanks to Graham Bell. It was through his invention it all started and blossomed later on. We conversed over telephone many times later on and became quite close but remained strangers at school. I could sense that she liked me too from her embracing smile and open discussions. It felt nice talking to her. We had an inter district mock exam called Vidhya Scan conducted at Salem and we couldn’t talk much during this exam prep. Though I never expected, I topped the exam in Chemistry, Maths and Overall in Bio stream. She topped in Biology. For the first or second time, I had a total more than her. We had our public exams soon and she was quite supportive and consoling when I discussed the mistakes I did in the final exams. With the advice and support of my uncle, I went to Chennai for my professional course entrance exam prep. However I was back to Dharmapuri to write the tests. I wanted to see her then, but couldn’t as she was in a different centre. The results were out and our scores – her 1161 and my 1162 kept us together :). It was only after a few days when I went to my school with my grandfather to collect the mark sheets and TC, I saw her with her Dad. I wanted to talk to her but didn’t. That day gave me a feeling that I missed something.


I lost touch with her for the next few months. I enjoyed the fun filled early days at CEG while she settled down at Stanley Medical College. My senior, Kadhir took me to SMC some day to meet one of our classmates at school. I happened to meet her after few months and we exchanged our Hostel numbers. Our telephone conversations started off again. I remember how I went to all possible STD booths in and around my college campus and how my fingers involuntarily and automatically typed her hostel number when I kept my fingers on the phone. She would promise to call me up at a certain time and she would call me up sharp to the second. I liked her unbelievable punctuality. I met her few times in her college and mine. I expressed my liking for her in several indirect ways, none of which she understood properly. I only knew that I liked her a lot and so did she. However, I wasn’t clear enough in deciding what further should happen. One of her classmate who was also my friend brought her to my college and left us alone to figure out what was between us which she felt was obvious and evident to her. Days passed with each one of us yearning for the other. One day, after several months of uncertainty, she admitted that she clearly knows what was between us. So, both of us got to know the bonding and the love that existed between us.



With a few days of this certainty, my mind played the spoil sport and kept telling me that it won’t work out for some reason. I requested her to just be friends with me for few days and then began the devastating experiences. I had my own version of Cheran’s tamil movie Autograph. Just that, the Sneha’s character in my life wasn’t as clear and strong as the one in the movie for some days but later became stronger and clearer. I was my own villain who separated us suddenly. We suffered loneliness terribly. Both of us wanted to get back to the other soon but we didn’t. I couldn’t approach her back for many days though I badly wanted to. There was a lot of self realization that was happening these days and I clearly got to know that I wanted her for life. I understood the value of compromise and commitment. However, it was totally unclear whether I would get her back. Days, months and years passed in this uncertainty. I gradually started talking to her and started sharing significant events with her. Every call of hers and every word she uttered gave me immense happiness. She got an M.D, Anesthesia in Madurai Medical College. It was exactly a year back, I collected all my guts and visited her in Madurai to outburst all my emotions. So strong was her commitment and love that she couldn’t let go off me despite several events that happened in her life. So, finally what I thought wouldn’t happen at all but badly wanted to happen, happened. I never believed in destiny but this felt like one.




My parents were kind and broad enough to accept us without a word for the sake of my happiness. Her parents gave the fun of fighting for what we wanted and it all happened finally.




We are immensely filled with happiness. We would marry next year, probably sometime in May.


Friday, April 2, 2010

எங்கிருக்கிறாய் பெண்ணே?

என் கண்களில் உன் பிம்பம் படவில்லை
என் செவிகளில் உன் குரல் விழவில்லை
நீ தொடும் தூரத்திலும் இல்லை
எனினும் , உன்னை முழுமையாக உணர முடிகிறது
என்னுள் கலந்து இருக்கிறாய்
என்னை சுற்றி மலர்ந்து இருக்கிறாய்
எனது அருகில் எப்பொழுது வருவாய்?

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

என் ராதைக்காக

உன் அழகினை என் கண்கள் அறிவதை விட என் உள்ளம் அறியும்
உன் பாசத்தை என் உள்ளம் அறிவதை விட என் உயிர் அறியும்
காலம் தாமதித்து உன் உள்ளம் அறிந்தேன்
காலம் முடிந்தாலும் உன் உயிர் பிரியேன்

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Frustration to Innovation!!

I joined Manhattan Associates as a Quality Analyst ( It is a refined name for a testing engineer ;) ). Initially I found what ppl did and what I had to do, absolutely ridiculous. It was only when I was given the automation project, things changed. Even writing automation (Win runner) scripts was a boring task. However My roommates always used to say that any similar repetitive task can be and should be automated. This remained my inspiration and I started organizing my tasks such a way that it was similar and repetitive and achieved another level of automation and dramatically increased the productivity. There was a very good recognition for me in the company. I got personal appreciation from the leaders of the company including the MD, CTO and CEO. My MD said that I was a part of the solution and not the problem. The video below which was put in our intranet portal is an example. I just wanted to share it with you all. Pls do watch :).



The idea of automating any similar repetitive task remains in my head and I'm implementing it as much as I can in my work. Some crazy ideas like automating highly repetitive tasks in life like cooking and the likes keeps flashing in my head. However I'm uncertain if I will be able to do anything to it :) !!!

Sunday, September 9, 2007

Be selfish but also be responsible

I know it is after a very long time. Somehow, I could post my thoughts as a blog only now. However, I now have a series of them listed down and will post them one by one. Thanks for your visit and comments in advance.

I have just finished reading a Michael Connelly book - Chasing the Dime. It was a page-turner. I had the urge to complete it as fast as possible, which is not always the case with all the novels. Therefore, the point is it was an awesome read for me and you too can try this author if you have not yet.

My interpretations and inferences:

The novel is about the industrial giants preventing a revolutionary invention to happen, as it would affect their business. Despite the fact that it would change everything in the world the way it is. It would dramatically improvise all that is done for the welfare of life. It would make impossibilities possible.

However, for this to happen, the idea has to be encouraged, the invention needs funding for a proof of concept and prototype. Later on, it should reach people making them realise its capabilities and should be widely accepted by many of them, which is very important. What if it is capable, it is of no use unless people believe that it is.

Therefore, it is not so easy to improvise or change the system with just the idea, urge and good intentions. One has to struggle to make the society believe. Otherwise, he fails pathetically. The irony is one who is not capable but is able to convince people, wins.

Why is this so difficult? Is not improvisation and change that would benefit the society as a whole, a people's need?

Actually, people need improvement and benefits but only for them. They are not bothered about what should happen to others and the world.

That is the reason the industrial giants does not want a revolutionary invention to happen. It would destroy their business. Not all that they do at present may make sense after that invention is widely accepted by people. Therefore, they do not want it to happen despite the fact that it would be of great benefit for the whole world. You can find several such examples in real life. Good intentions are not being encouraged unless it personally benefits people.

Is this being selfish? So, is being selfish wrong? Does this mean that if people are selfish nothing good can happen!

There is nothing wrong in being selfish, you have to be selfish. Actually, every body is selfish because that is how one can be. Even a person who does lots of charity and social work is selfish. He does that because he feels happy in doing that.

So, how a common good can happen if everybody is selfish? It can. Just that apart from being selfish, you should realize that you are responsible for everything in the world. It is not being responsible. It is realizing that you are responsible because you already are responsible. Whatever you do has an impact in the society and in turn the whole world.

It is like every cell in the human body having an impact in the functioning of the body. Like every component of an atom determining its characteristics. We are after all a component of the society. Whatever we do therefore has an impact in the society. Not just that, whatever happens to the society has an impact on us. You feel the pain if you get hurt. You will feel the same pain even if the society you live in gets hurt.


Therefore, we already are responsible for everything happening around us. Around us does not mean just ourselves or our family and friends. It means our society, country, the whole world and even more than that.

Once this realization of universal responsibility happens, being selfish would definitely lead to a common good. If the industrial giants had realized their responsibility, they would have made a better decision even being selfish and benefit from the revolutionary invention.

I cannot imagine the kind of harmony, happiness and collaboration that would result if this realization happens in a large scale.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Intro


I took me this long to enter the wonderful world of expressions. Hi to all my fellow beings. For those who don't know me, I'm Magizhan( read "Magilan" if you can't bend the tip of your tongue to its middle to pronounce this special letter in tamil) :) I'm not that complicated.

I was born in a small beautiful village called "Chinnankuppam" as the first son to my loving parents. Brought up in the same place till my 4th enthralling everybody by my charm and intellect(they say ;))....

Shifted to Krishnagiri, during my 5th std. Did my secondary education in Cambridge Matric, a lovely school located in a serene and beautiful locale full of colorful plants and trees. The school not just made the seeds realize its totipotency but also its children who grew independent and strong. I'm one among them.

Went back to my loving grand parents in chinnankuppam for my higher secondary. State 2 in TNPCEE medicine was the outcome of love and affection my grand parents showered on me and the Motivation my Mom gave with a bit of determination and hard work.
ow! It wasn't an attempt to write an auto biography. Lemme finish it short.
I then chose engineering for medicine at CEG, Anna University and I've almost completed a year in Manhattan Associates, Bangalore.
Hopefully I structure the haphazard distributions in my gray matter and keep posting them here. Do read them and put your valuable comments :)..